This is the last post i need to put on this blog, it’s been a year like i promised Kyle i would do, and it’s funny as i sit here in my house, which now feels like my prison, i’m not going to miss it at all !
This has easily been the worst year of my life, hands down and it’s still going, no looking on the bright side, no light at the end of the tunnel none of that i’m afraid.
I’ve learnt so much, i’ve learnt that it doesn’t matter how good you are it DOES NOT mean you will get the work, you need to know the handshake, or need to know someone, you don’t need to have an ounce of fuckin talent at all, if you sold cars ( or bricks) you can pick up a DSLR turn up create below average pictures and get away with it, and be so fuckin deluded with your Talent that you believe you are the man !
Being a photographer is not what it used to be, and i’m having real trouble dealing with this, sitting at home gives me a long time to think, probably too much time and as i am selling some of my lenses to pay my bills i ask my self is it worth it ?
and i’m afraid i can’t answer that any more, but just as i doubt myself, my life, my ability and my belief in God, and yes i’m a big believer in God, just because i don’t shout about it or go to church on a sunday doesn’t mean i don’t pray or believe, but just as i’m at the lowest i’ve ever been my mother gives me a bookmark, yes that’s right a bookmark and below is what it says on it.
DON’T QUIT
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
when the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you can never tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems afar,
So, stick to the fight when your hardest hit,
It’s when things go wrong that you mustn’t quit
















